High School Days

I probably shouldn't be writing this right now since I am both sleepy and desperately need to study for a Java final tomorrow. However, my mind needs a bit of a break, so why not blog?

High School. I shouldn't be concerned with that part of my past, but it doesn't seem to pop up sometimes.

I didn't have a particularly great high school experience. I had a lot of problems with my friends and a girl who still sees me as her "rival" or "mortal enemy". Hence, I had a relationship with a guy that I was not extremely fond of for the fear that I would be alone. I didn't actually realize this until I came to college and develop a wider range of friends.

Since I don't have fond memories of my high school days, I'm always surprised when someone kind of... shows up?

Yesterday, I became a member of Quora. The reason for this was that my boyfriend told me that I should ask a question on it (I was having some difficulties with Java and my current project).

A few minutes ago, I received an email saying that someone was following me on there. It turned out to be someone from my high school. It..really surprised me.

I always felt that he didn't like me very much. He never really talked to me even though we were both in the percussion section of band and he was in several (if not all) of my classes during senior year.

At times like these... I have to ask why? Why would you add me?

You never talked to me or seemed to want to get to know me... so why?

I'm not being mean or angry about it. I just... don't understand. In my opinion, I'm not interesting or extremely smart. I'm not beautiful or confident. To me, there is no reason for people I knew in high school to care about my existence anymore...

Maybe it's strange of me to say this, but I've felt this way for awhile and now used it as an excuse to get this feeling off of my mind.

Perhaps I am making too much out of it though. It was probably just by accident.