Being Comfortable

Everyone has people or a situation that they are comfortable with, whether it is friends or doing a certain activity, we know how we feel about it.

However, we are all put into situations where we don't like the people we are around or feel very uncomfortable with the situation. Some people are very good at handling these situations.

And then... there are people like me.

I know I am very bad at it. My mannerisms completely change when I am around people I don't really enjoy. Many people, I think, know if I do not like them. I will just stare at something else rather than the person when I am talking to them. I also am very short; I don't like to elaborate on my feelings about something. I will only say something like, "Okay" or "Yeah".

Apparently, I am have hurt someone's feelings in my house. I live in a campus house, but I only get along with two people that live here. I've had a lot of issues with my housemates and I am looking forward to the campus house I will live in next year.

Although I don't get along with most of the girls here (there are a total of 9), I don't want to be rude to them. My friend, and also my roommate, told me I was, basically, a bitch to one of the girls the other day.

I could say it was because I was stressed out (I had two tests to study for) and I felt like I had too many things to do, but I feel like that just might be an excuse. I am so bad with dealing with people that I don't like very much or that I don't know very well.

I think I need to learn how to fix it. It's not a good practice to have. I just want to be civil with everyone. As it goes, you never know who you may have to deal with in the future. It is better to treat everyone in a civilized manner rather than show how you feel about them (unless the situation calls for it, of course).

I hope I can learn to change and any advice on the situation would be welcome.

I just want to be a good person...