I keep hearing me say that to my self in my head.
"Just do it."
"Say it."
"Get it over with."
"You'll feel better."
I'm sick of it.
I just wish I had the guts to do something.. to say anything.
I'm just going to loathe in some of my self hate.
Friday, May 24, 2013
Monday, May 20, 2013
Ugh.. Feelings
Lately.. I keep feeling a little sad and having strange dreams. At first I thought it was because I miss everyone from school now that I'm home. While I still think that is one of the reasons, I can't help but feel like it isn't the only reason.
I think I am suffering from loneliness and fear...
You see, the boy that I have feelings for went back to his home country. However, this is not such a big problem for me at the moment because I will be seeing him next month. My problem is that we never discussed our relationship.
Towards the beginning, we had a talk about it. I told him that.. I wanted to try to continue our relationship even though I know it would be difficult. He told me that he wanted to think about it (there's a lot of detail behind that which I won't get in to).
Now.. I don't know what to think. I'm not sure if we are together still or not. I'm so terrified to bring up the subject, but I know I have to soon.
However, I am also afraid that I will ruin our relationship. He told me that after he breaks up with a girl, he doesn't talk to them anymore. I don't want that to happen...
I'll understand if he doesn't want to continue to date me... although, I will be quite hurt by it.
But, I guess for me, I would rather have a relationship than nothing at all (and I don't mean a romantic relationship, just a close relationship...someone I can call a good friend).
I just want to know how he feels. I want to stop worrying about what he is doing or what he thinks of me.
Jeez... I must be so annoying.
I think I am suffering from loneliness and fear...
You see, the boy that I have feelings for went back to his home country. However, this is not such a big problem for me at the moment because I will be seeing him next month. My problem is that we never discussed our relationship.
Towards the beginning, we had a talk about it. I told him that.. I wanted to try to continue our relationship even though I know it would be difficult. He told me that he wanted to think about it (there's a lot of detail behind that which I won't get in to).
Now.. I don't know what to think. I'm not sure if we are together still or not. I'm so terrified to bring up the subject, but I know I have to soon.
However, I am also afraid that I will ruin our relationship. He told me that after he breaks up with a girl, he doesn't talk to them anymore. I don't want that to happen...
I'll understand if he doesn't want to continue to date me... although, I will be quite hurt by it.
But, I guess for me, I would rather have a relationship than nothing at all (and I don't mean a romantic relationship, just a close relationship...someone I can call a good friend).
I just want to know how he feels. I want to stop worrying about what he is doing or what he thinks of me.
Jeez... I must be so annoying.
Tuesday, May 7, 2013
I won't give Zach Braff one dime
I won't give Zach Braff one dime
Check this out.
I have heard of Kickstarter, but I never really looked into it or knew completely what it was about.
This is for people who have talent and are creative that need some help.
Clerks was a great film, but I never would have gotten to see it if Kevin Smith couldn't have gotten it out there.
We need to support this.
Check this out.
I have heard of Kickstarter, but I never really looked into it or knew completely what it was about.
This is for people who have talent and are creative that need some help.
Clerks was a great film, but I never would have gotten to see it if Kevin Smith couldn't have gotten it out there.
We need to support this.
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